Dear Anthony Stadlen,
My difficulties with the English language are no excuse,
here. When I wrote " I only realized" I was thinking about my personal
"reality", that is, I then referred to a discovery that led me to a
conviction - but this conviction remains open to be questioned. As you
just did.
I was arguing in favor of the idea that Shade, Kinbote and Gradus were
one and the same but, contrary to my "realization"" concerning the
"ashen fluff", I still rather uncertain about that.
Jansy